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Ms. home

i have this odd feeling of loneliness to be by myself at home for 3 consecutive days while my whole family is on a vacation trip. Yet, dont accuse me of being such a babie. im just sharing. You know how much i wanna live on my own. So having a house for myslef is definitely cool. tho, but not the fact that i have no one to eat dinner with or no one to nag me about my sloppyness. i kinda miss those already. [please dont tell my parents i said that. its just day 1 and they would surely bluff me if they do know]. Although, circumstances change. it is very rare to have everyone leaves me behine. The general case is the opposite, which i would be out of town or country and they would take care of the house.

Now it’s my turn T.T

news disease

Ok, so i think pretty much everyone knows about my new job. it spreads like an epidemic. having said that, i dont mean to keep it a secret. But it’s a little tiring when eveyone asks me about it. i just wanted to talk with my trusted ones you know. anyway, i shouldnt have said all these. at least, it shows that they care or probably are concerned about my condition. i had complained a lot a while back.

so…just for the sake of talking about something else beyond work and my complex emotion at the moment, i’d like to take you to the antique market at Ploen-warn hua-hin, one of the most famous tourist destination….

there is nothing major to show…but here they are:

my favorite snack 15 years ago

the beach@suan-son, military-owned shelters

all these pics belong to my friend :)

Hidden weight benefits of yoga

Taken from Reader’s Digest–by Beth Howard

“yoga practitioners were more likely than the others to report behaviors assocaited with “mindful eating”, such as being aware when they were hungry or full or eating out of stress or boredom. The researchers suggest that’s one reason the yoga fans generally had a lower body mass index–even though more than half of all study participants got plenty of exercise. The yoga enthusiasts’ BMI averaged about 23, compared with 25.8 for those who didn’t practice the discipline”.

Beyond possibility

if you think im ridiculous, watch this demonstration by Kino

insane? yup ;)
side note: I’ve heard there is a workshop/retreat of Kino MacGregor down in koh samui ,yoga thailand by Paul Dallagan some time later this year (and probably every year). so wishing i could attend …

appearance matters?…daily annoyance from social pressure

I can never understand why Thai people care so much about the fact that I have small eyes. Ok, I know that they are amazingly smaller than average, but so what? It’s not like they are theirs; they are mine. Everyone teases me about this since I was born, and I am used it. Nevertheless, it started bugging me when many of them do it too often. It gets on my nerve especially when I have to react like I am not bothered. After a while, it starts to make me feel like maybe I probably look like an alien, which lowers my confidence.

About 2 years ago, I had a conversation with my foreign supervisor about the thickness of my eyelids. I complained to her and mentioned how much it affects my self-esteem. In her viewpoint, she said I look just like anybody else. Having small eyes and thick eyelids are just the indications for being Chinese-descent, she added. So should I care?
Well, it is not that easy to ignore when everyone is saying it every day!

So I think my point is that I don’t want people around me to treat my small eyes as some sort of inferiority and alienate me from the group. After all, it is something I genetically inherited and not that I have a choice. Neither, do I mean I hate I have/or am now though.
….you see, maybe it comes down to deciding whether to live in the environment that people care and live with it OR migrate to somewhere no one gives a damn about…